Bright & Cheery Inspired Bridal Shower

First off..... WELCOME TO MY BLOG!

Whether you're new to my blog or you've been around the block, I'm so happy to have you! Today I'm especially excited to share this incredible Bridal Shower Styled Shoot that is featured on The Perfect Palette

This incredible shoot was inspired by Kate Spade! I could have DIED! I am absolutely OBSESSED with the Kate Spade brand and when Linda Lyons of Lyons Events said she designed the shoot after KS creations I KNEW this was going to be MAGICAL! 

The team that came together to create this amazing shoot is listed below! Please take the time to give each one a visit and some love! You won't regret it! 

Be sure to check out the FULL article on The Perfect Palette! CLICK HERE

VENDORS:

Photographer: Meli Kerr Photography | @meli.kerr

Floral Design: Katie Bug Florals | @katiebugflorals

Desserts: Tart Bakery | @tartbakerydallas

Dresses: Love Tanya | @shoplovetanya

Jewelry: Monee Elizabeth | @monee_elizabeth

Paper: Lyons Paperie | @lyonspaperie

Hair and Makeup: @meli.kerr and @zoha1995

Models: @zoha1995, @rachel.e.li

Planner + Stylist:  Lyons Events | @lyonsevents

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XOXO meli

Dear January,

This is going to be a real, honest, and most likely, emotional post because our January was AMAZING and awful all in one. So if you're not wanting to see a bit into our lives, you may just want to skip this post. I warned you. 

January started of great! It was full of promise and excitement! We started it off by seeing the MOST amazing movie!! (The Greatest Showman). If you've seen it, I think you'll agree with me when I say the production value was INCREDIBLE! I could go on and on about it but I won't. If you DO want to chat about it LMK and I'd be all over that!

The second week of January was the BEST week of our lives! On January 11th we found out that we were GOING TO BE PARENTS!!! We were shocked! We definitely didn't think it would happen as quickly as it did (only a few months). And Nick came up with the best way to tell our families! Since we're in Texas and they're alll in Utah (and one in Idaho-rebel ;p) we got a family Skype session planned. Nick and I made these t-shirts and when we gave them an update on our lives we started talking all about how Nick is "on track for getting a promotion" and I am "starting a new position soon" and that we made shirts to celebrate (kind of a weird thing to make t-shirts for buuuttt... hey. Don't judge.) We had made sure that no one could see our shirts up until we told them about this and when we panned down to show them our shirts everyone went WILD! It was the best, most exciting time! Luckily, we recorded their reactions and I think I watched each family's reactions at least 5 times right after we were done talking to them. 

We were allll in. I started taking photos to show the progress my belly would make over then next 9 months (first photo I didn't really understand how to pose like a preggers but I was making progress by the second). We started planning family vacations around it and figuring out when my mom would come to help organize my house to get ready for baby. I started getting the low down from my good friend who just had a baby on what to expect and which products I just HAD to get! I even started reading What to Expect When You're Expecting and alllll the pregnancy apps/articles I could find! 

I had 2 wonderful, long, glorious weeks of being pregnant (and knowing it) before I miscarried. But I need to be clear about something. I'm not writing this and telling ya'll about the worst thing that's ever happened to me in any plea for sympathy, encouragement or anything of the like. I'm sharing because THIS IS MY LIFE. It's important to me to share it with my family and friends and maybe because I share my life (even the bad) it'll help someone. 

Nick and I were DEVASTATED. This Little One. This baby the size of a pea had become our ENTIRE LIVES! All we could think about was this baby and then suddenly, it was gone. It was so extremely hard and I can't begin to tell you what it is like going through that. It's still hard. I find myself distracting myself so that I don't have to think about it because the second I do, I'm a mess reliving it all over again. 

But for as hard as this experience is, we have been immensely blessed. Our families and friends have rallied around us, supporting us, bringing us meals, sending us flowers, visiting us and just letting us know how much they love us. And we have felt an enormous peace through it all. 

When I was little, I remember my mom asking me if I could keep a secret. Of course I told her yes because I wanted to know what that secret was SOOO badly! She told me that I was going to have another little sibling soon and I was sooo excited! I wanted a baby sister soo bad! And then a little while later she came back to me and told me that the baby had died. I remember so vividly my mom explaining that the baby couldn't come because they needed a perfect body and the body that had been growing wasn't perfect so it needed to start over again. And a little while later she did get pregnant and had my perfect baby sister!

My baby sister & me ^^

I have clung to that experience as I've gone through my own miscarriage. And as I've talked to people I've realized that my outlook might be a little unique. For many people miscarriage means the baby just simply isn't coming. For me, I prayed every day that I knew I was pregnant for my Little One to have a perfect little body and my prayers are being answered. This body wasn't going to be perfect and my body knew that so it simply hit the "Start Over" button. And you might be reading this, having experienced a miscarriage and felt like you lost a baby that isn't going to come. And you may be right. I really believe Mothers have an intuition and know. But for me, this isn't a goodbye to the most precious little person that I've never met before, it's a "we'll see you soon because I'm going to do everything I can to get you here." 

 I'm extremely grateful to all of my friends and family who have experienced this loss and have reached out or even just shared your stories. I don't think it's talked about enough. ONE in every FOUR pregnancies end in miscarriage or stillbirth. It's a startling fact and I understand why it's not talked about. It's HARD to open up about your loss. It's HARD to relive it. It's HARD to admit that every time you watch a show and a woman finds out she's pregnant/has a big bump/has a baby you find yourself bawling with grief and envy. I went to the doctors and on the elevator it opened to a woman DAYS away from having her baby in her arms and I LOST IT. Nick had to stare me down so that I didn't break down in front of the whole (crowded) elevator but the second I got to the car you bet I was done for. It's just not something that we want to go through over and over again if you don't have to. 

But I wonder if talking about it and being open about it would help us heal. I'm not sure if it will but this is me trying. I've been dreading writing this post because I didn't have much to share about my January besides this and I'm STILL not sure if I'm ready to share this with the world, but I want to heal. I want to be excited to start my little family again. I want to ONLY feel joy and peace holding my friends' adorable babies instead of a mix of joy, peace, and outrageous envy. (I'm honestly surprised I haven't turned into the Hulk yet.) I know it will happen but being patient has ALWAYS been hard for me and it's especially hard now. 

Nick and I have experienced a MILLION tender mercies though this hard time and want to thank each of you for your love and support! My wish is that I can help someone somewhere though a hard time as well. If you need to talk, PLEASE reach out!! Let's fight the good fight together!

 

XOXO meli

There's Something Magical About December

Well... that was fast!! I absolutely cannot believe that it's ALREADY time for my monthly update! (as evidenced by the fact that I'm writing this 3 days later than I wanted to... off to a great start in 2018). 

I kicked December off with the first styled shoot I've ever put together! I definitely had a LOT of help from the fabulous Jessica Scott at J.Scott Events! (Seriously, if you need an event planner, she's amazing!) And if you follow me on any social media (bless you and thank you!) you've seen that I made a BIG stink about it and then didn't really post anything about it...... well, as far as excuses go, I think it's pretty legit, but I couldn't post about it because I was trying to get it published in a wedding magazine/blog... I still am! But I'm going the non-exclusive route so that I can FINALLY SHARE THEM!! (Post is coming MÁS RAPIDO) buuuuuuuuut who wants to wait for the next post, I definitely don't! So here's more of a sneak peak than I've showed ANYWHERE else! 

I got to work with SO many INCREDIBLE vendors! So if you just got engaged or are planning your wedding and need some referrals (along with an awesome photographer *wink*) I got you! 

Also in the month of December I started planning SEVERAL other styled shoots along with a MASSIVE GUIDED STYLED SHOOT with my amazing friend Mary of Mary Jessica Photography! I'm seriously SOO excited about all of that and CANNOT wait to share them! (not all of them will have insane build up and then a long-overdue follow up I promise!) And if you're a photographer and want to join me on those shoots (I LOVE PHOTO FRIENDS) send me your email and I'll let you know the second tickets are available! (one of these days I'll get a subscription box on my site (just realized I'm REEEAAALLY lovin parentheses today)) 

Baby JoJo came early and I got to do my first hospital shoot and will be sharing those shortly as well! Lots of blogging to do! I also got to work with an ad agency to help with a shoot for Coca-Cola and Mission Tortillas which was a blast!! Hopefully, I'll be able to work with them again soon. 

The BIG event(s) of the month started on the 16th and didn't end until New Year's Day when we got to fly home for the holidays! It was well anticipated because Nick has been SOO busy and a bit stressed with work that we hadn't spent a ton of time together since he started his new job and so 2 weeks of him not having to work (basically at all) and being together 24/7 was amazing! We got to meet up with a bunch of friends (no pictures because although I am a photographer, I SUCK at remembering to take photos in the moment), do a mini Christmas with MY family (we had Thanksgiving with them so it was a Kerr Christmas this year!), go to a Barker AND a Kerr Christmas party and see our fellow relations and eat amazing food! (And there's literally not a single picture of all of that *facepalm*). 

Susan (my amazing Mother-In-Law) and Maddy (my awesome Sister-in-Law) took me and Nick to Gardner Village! It's an old polygamist compound turned shopping center that's actually quite charming! They even have delicious treats and a salt water taffy pulling machine that I could watch for HOURS. We also visited Temple Square with the whole family which was REALLY fun but very cold and stopped by the Grand America Hotel to see the Christmas windows (seriously so amazing! I want to be the one to do it someday!) and the GIANT gingerbread house that was entirely edible (some people tested it...sick) and smelled SOO good! I smelled it before I could see it! 

Christmas was the best! We slept in until 8am (I don't think I've done that on Christmas... ever) opened presents, and had THE MOST amazing breakfast featuring a FRENCH TOAST CASSEROLE that was absolutely to DIE for! (Susan, I'm still waiting for that! ;) ) When she send's that I'll post it at the bottom so you all can try it... It's incredible! Since we had our big Christmas dinner on Christmas Eve we went to Macaroni Grill for dinner! It was great because we didn't have to cook OR clean up! We were so stinkin spoilt by all our family and friends! So here's a GIANT WHOPPING THANK YOU to you all!! LOVE YOU!!

The Kerrs are BIG movie goers. It's kind of our thing! And since Nick & I hadn't gone to a movie in almost 6 months (longest movie draught of our lives) we definitely tried to make up for lost time. We started with Thor: Ragnarok which was definitely our favorite superhero movie yet, followed it with Jumanji (SOOO funny!) which we were PLEASANTLY surprised by, then the new Star Wars which was washed down with The Darkest Hour (10/10 would recommend). For all you history buffs out there who want to nerd out with me... watch The Darkest Hour, followed by Dunkirk (the most beautifully filmed movie of ALL time), followed by The Crown (thank you Netflix!). If anyone else has a more complete and/or better movie/show list of WWII/Winston Churchill's life PLEASE share!! The Kerrs also have the tradition of making gingerbread houses! Before I joined the family, Nick turned the tradition into ginger-massacre-houses (which Ben graciously continued this year). Since I joined the family, the houses have become more designer and Maddy now gives them to her cute nursery kids from church.

NYE we got to go up and visit with my family again for a little while which was a blast! We watched the Chargers kick butt (even through their kicker can't) and attempted to play Rook (a 100 yr old Stoker fam. tradition). Unfortunately, we had to leave before we could REALLY play because Nick & I had to get back in time to pack and have Ben's birthday dinner! One of the Kerr traditions is that you can't have your cake & ice cream until AFTER you say something you like/admire/positive about the person whose birthday it is. So we followed tradition and celebrated in style! And this year, the boys decided to do a Madden tournament because Chris got it for Christmas and the boys just HAD to be competitive.... (as always). The seeds were as follows: 4. Wayne 3. Nick 2. Ben 1. Chris. I'll let you decide who won. 

We left for Dallas on New Year's Day which was REALLY hard. We had so much fun with family & friends (and seeing our pup Jack for a second!) and there were SO many people we didn't get to see that we really had wanted to which contributed to the hard factor. Luckily, our original flight was cancelled so we got to leave a few hours later and I got to fly FIRST CLASS!! WHOO BABY! Poor Nick got downgraded from First Class on the original flight to Economy on the one we took and had to sit in the VERY last row... at least it was an isle seat, right babe?? (I honestly don't know how we got First Class to begin with! I know we didn't pay for it!). 

2017 was absolutely amazing! In April we got to graduate together from BYU, hung out at the beach in San Diego while celebrating our amazing country (USA! USA! USA!), moved to Dallas which was only made bearable by my amazing family who helped drive us and our crap out here!, I started doing photography full-time, Nick started work for McKinsey & Co. (definitely more than full-time), we found an amazing support system here in Dallas, and now visiting Utah is FUN!! 

I'm seriously soo grateful to each of you for the love, support, and motivation you give me! This has been a wild ride and I cannot WAIT to see what 2018 has for us! "2.0.1.8. is gonna be GREAT!" -Edie (our Uber driver)

XOXO meli 

 

P.S. Our beloved Prophet passed away last night at the age of 90. He is an incredible example of Christlike love and of leaving the flock to rescue the one. His life is something I wish to mirror of building relationships and growing together to come unto Christ. 

"Never let a problem to be solved become more important than a person to be loved."             -President Thomas S. Monson     1927-2018

P.P.S I know I promised a longer explanation on how I do my goals for the year on Instagram and I haven't forgotten! That will come soon! Promise!

 

SOOO AMAZING!!!! 

 

 

Cat & Kyle Nordhagen - American Fork, UT

MERRY CHRISTMAS and a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! 

Meet Cat & Kyle Nordhagen! They are absolutely amazing! I met Kyle my senior year of college at BYU while I was serving at the Executive Director of Marketing for the Marriott School Student Council. Kyle was part of the most amazing group I've been a part of to date! My committee was so awesome that we would have game nights and that's how I met Cat! Annnnddd that's how I found out the Nordhagen's secret: GAME CONNOISSEURS.  

No joke. Nick and I have been introduced to SOOOO many incredible games like Monopoly Deal, Quiplash, Fibbage, and Drawful (to name a few). Now we know where to go to fund the best games! And I'm sure if you asked them, they'd be happy to share their wisdom with you too!!!

Games aside, this session was a DREAM! We went up American Fork Canyon in Utah for the greenery and dramatic scenery but we were blessed with THE FIRST SNOW OF THE YEAR!! It was sooo magical! I had flown out from Dallas the day before and I was ready for the cold! If you've read my last couple of personal updates, you know how much I've been craving sweater + boot weather so when I got here and not only got my beautiful mountains and sweater weather AND I got beautiful, magical, SNOW I was in HEAVEN!! (Also freezing my bahootie off but that's another story) 

I hope your Christmas is amazing and filled with magic, games, fun, and amazing food!! (Of course!) I'd LOVE to hear what your family traditions are, gifts you got, funny stories, etc. in the comments below!!! PLEAAAASSSEEE SHARE WITH ME YOUR LIFE!! I love it. Seriously.

 

XOXO meli