It's taken me a while to get back to writing after my last post. I'm sure ya'll understand. But there were plenty of ups for every hard day to share!
Started off the month in the BEST way possible: MY EAGLES FINALLY WON THE SUPERBOWL!!! And man, WHAT A GAME?! Am I right?? Seriously my favorite football game of all time!
You might be wondering why a girl from Utah is a fan of the Philadelphia Eagles?
2004. The year of the infamous JT & Janet Jackson fiasco (didn't actually see that, I was in the other room playing with the neighbors when we heard everyone shouting to close their eyes lol). I was 12 years old. Our neighbors, the Parry's, came over to watch the game: New England Patriots vs. Philadelphia Eagles. I watched McNabb throw a touch-down pass to Pinkston and that's all it took. Pinkston. The COOLEST last name I'd ever seen. And McNabb, Pinkston, & T.O. were INCREDIBLE to watch. The Eagles lost by 3 points that day. But they gained a forever fan.
So seeing my Eagles not only win their FIRST Super Bowl title, but also seeing them take revenge and kick Pat-butt was the BEST!! (ha-ha suck it Pats ;P)
Then it was MARDI GRAS!! It killed me being so close to Louisiana and not being able to go to a parade! But my mama came through and sent us some good ol' Moon Pies to celebrate with! Maybe next year we'll actually get to a parade!
We also discovered CARLOS' FRICKEN BAKERY in DALLAS!! It's the closest one to Utah (unless Santa Monica is closer). But I was FREAKING out!! I LOOOOOOOOVED watching Cake Boss and I dreamed of making cakes like that! And guess what y'all! It's just DOWN THE STREET from us! So stinking close! If ya'll come visit us, we'll definitely take you! (The chocolate moose cake is amazing.)
We also got to watch our FAVORITE pup Moose... again! I swear I love him like he's my own dog! Mary, Brady, if for some crazy reason you ever have to give him up, WE WILL TAKE HIM!! (Even Nick said he would!)
And even though it was cold all month... and I mean COLD, Nick and I made it on a few walks when it was nice. I really love being out and exploring all that Dallas has to offer with my man. This month especially has been SO hard to be away from our families and it's made me even more grateful to have such a rock by my side! I wouldn't change it for the world! But I would LOVE to have family come visit us more! (*hint* *hint* *cough*mom*cough*)
I also got to make some new amazing friends at a last minute shoot, take a stroll through the Dallas Zoo with the coolest mama and her adorable twins, find a TAXIDERMY place out in the middle of no where (it's actually by the cutest wedding venue! but in the middle of THE country), and eat a DELICIOUS heart-attack-on-a-stick-and-bun (aka: Carnival Berger).
I also got some new headshots done thanks to my amazing friends Brittany & Lexie AND I found out how hot my hubs would be if he were a SHE! ;) Isn't he smokin??
AND I SIGNED UP FOR ANOTHER HALF MARATHON... I think I'm broken.
And while you see the highlights and the good times and I put on a pretty positive attitude when I write, the truth is that most days just kinda sucked. I don't share them because there isn't much to share. Just the day to day work, chores, appointments, and emotional processing time. We have been so blessed with love and support by people around us but I've found the HARDEST thing for me to get through is the fact that my life has gone back to "normal". My world keeps spinning although I don't want it to sometimes and it just takes time to process that. And I'm not so sure I'm doing a good job at processing it. So please keep loving me. Please keep talking to me even when I don't have much to say. And if you know someone going through a similar thing, REACH OUT. There's nothing worse than feeling alone and unheard. A simple text is all it takes sometimes!
Most of February looked something like this
I'm SOO grateful for the outpouring of love that Nick & I have received since opening up about our loss. It is such a difficult thing to go through and SO many people have been there. But what comforts me most is being able to REALLY talk to someone who knows what I'm feeling. Who gets the weird rollercoaster of being fine and even happy one minute and crying the next second because you saw a cute baby that reminds you that your time isn't yet.
I see so often about the harm of social media. And it is REAL. Like, my kids will NOT have social media until they're at LEAST 16, maybe 21... But what if we did something to fight that? What if we shared what's REAL and how to be happier, be better, and live more fulfilling lives?
Focusing on living a more fulfilling life is so compelling, so motivating! But I'm not exactly sure how to do it. So if you have ANY ideas on how to live a more fulfilling life PLEASE tell me! Comment on this post, email me, DM me, whatever. Just LET ME KNOW!